A full list.

Tonight consisted of devyn, Wyatt, Taylor, randi, Myles, Kyle, Daniel, Karen, samuel, alani, oli, luke, Ryan, Joey, Jacob, Austin, Jasjit and my dad. 

I wish it had also had paige Catherine, Hannah, Kelly, lil, Aly, Halle, jack, Gabi, Adrian, Maggie, my brother, billy, drew, Bryan, Ben, josh, Somer, Jamie, Hannah D, Kate, and Avery. 

Roll into me.

I'm outside to watch this thunderstorm roll in. 

I want to be here when it starts to rain. 

Hopefully not a pre-cog dream....

I got pregnant last night in my dream to someone who turned out to be gay maybe and lils friends were his friends and it happened at this frat night where we kept hanging out with these frat kids moslty in the street and their houses and I stole some sparkling shirts from tke that they supposedly took from girls who blacked out they also had strippers and i drove to a store to get food got cookie dough and something specific for the guys and I tried to use one of their cards almost and the store threatened so then I lulled out my license debit card Ryan's I'd moms card and my insurance card so they let me buy the stuff. I remember seeking counsel for the abortion from Abbie chapman but I guess I didn't do it or maybe I did but either way I got married. 

Who the fuck needs hideas anyways...

Like when I'm high I don't have big ideas I have honest weird fuck thoughts like this blanket is so kind and soft hugging my leg like that and I didn't eat those fries again but I bought them and they're fine so I ate them. 

Working Girl

Does having two jobs have to be this hard? I've talked to the bosses about scheduling yet when it's convenient to them they just throw me in wherever. Well that's it. I'm quitting. Just that one though. But really. 

As I look down...

As I look down I see two legs with thighs which are too large and too white touching each other too much too close to the place where they finally meet. 

As I look down I see two knees which are too red and tender to the touch with bruises from things I was too careless to remember. 

As I look down I see two shins which are too pale and curve out too far down into what I fear will become two kankles. 

As I look down I see two feet which used to be pointed like the curve of the moon as it wanes and waxes every two weeks which now twist and twitch impatiently too often touching these stubborn toes to show and to tell. 

As I look down I see too much tummy and too many freckles and too much of my too wide nose and too many scars under one too many bracelets. 

A New Begining

This year has been a million things.

The one common theme that keeps popping up is that I need to focus on myself; well more specifically stop seeing myself as exclusively a reflection of the way the world treats me as a manifestation of the way I treat it. I feel like the first step to that is to cut ties with a lot of the ways i become focused on others such as not looking at other drivers as much or not trying to text people as much or getting rid of my Facebook. It would still be nice to have a place to share things and my thoughts except now it's just for me but I still get the sudo public aspect of it all. It will also give me a chance to write and create and post.

I've always believed that there's life already there set up and in the past behind you and just because it's not accessible, forwards or backwards, doesn't mean you can change it either way though how you feel about it and how you react around it is the only part that matters.

So, what is fate you ask? It's the inevitability that seems to exist all around us like tomorrow is going to come as it already exists somewhere else and just because I don't know what it will bring doesn't make it not exist.

...and so, in conclusion, I bring you: thefatebook.